BACK FROM BANGKOK!

one word says it all!
insane!

headed there on sat evening! kiss, claudine, kendra, sabrina were already there. so it was reunion time on sat night! was damn fun going on the plan with joeanne. her and her pouts. damn cute la! lol. reached there bout nine plus i think ? cant remember and headed to the hotel! kiss and the rest were sleeeping but they woke up soon and we headed to sum lo or something!
stupid weather was like bad! raining like fuck all. we were damn hungry la! but that shopping place was like so big that we couldnt find anything to eat! got a shirt there i think!
headed back to the hotel and fuck the taxi uncle la! we got lost! plus he took our map!!! CB!
never mind. 3 lonely, hungry lost but RICH girls walking the streets then got thai men change underwear in front of us. damn freaky! but we got back to the hotel safely so thank god!!
counting our lucky stars!

second day was at cuhtucuk or however you spell it la! omg! i found my 2 years ago tom yam soup store!! damn happyy! it still taste so nice! wheeeee! kiss and me did damage to our wallets! got like dresses and shirts and shoes! nice nice nice only! joeanne was sad cause all the nice clothes she liked were too big for her! ): oh well! she got her nice things too anyway!
kiss and her CHARM. shant say la. she wouldnt kill me but. HAHAHHAHAHA. A I LOVE YOUUUUU!! hahahahaha highlight of the day man!
headed to sum lo at night again and this gay was damn nice! he gave me a top which i erm didnt really fancy just cause i lied that , that day was my birthday! wheeee!
joe got a SUPER big bag and i got a really nice dress thereeeee!

third day was ok la. was damn sleepy already. headed down to mbk to shop but ended up doing our hair ! i dye my hair and kiss PERMed her hair! whahaha, ok la. she curled her hair. nevertheless the results were fantastic! headed back to the hotel to sleep and it was chinatownn for us in the night! dont know why but like it was really quiet there, so we headed to this resturant and saw some reallly pretty person! but was really bad and we didnt want sum lo again so i called woon and found out bout this place called kusum road or something! its a stretch of bars and club also known as the backpackers place! damn happening la! headed there and decided on this cafe and met JENNNY! omg.
next entry will have photos! id let the pictures explain itself! whahaha!

fourth day was another shopping day at platimum mall. it was getting really tiring to go shopping la! i met woon! after so long! and she was so nice to bring us to the zoo! ok she and her friend! LOL. went back to the hotel to sleep after that and headed down again to kusum road! i realise something, taxi uncles always like thais more than us! it should be fair and equal what! tsk!
anyway! went to this nice cafe and ate and then back to that bar! JENNNYY! thanks woon for being our translator! many pictures later and drinks it was back to the hotel! with victory timings and sleeep!

the last day of bangkok was damn hectic la! omg! headed down to platimum to do last minute shopping! ended up slacking there. and then was to siam paragon to shop more! got 2 books there! thanks kiss for signing them for me ! ultimate LOVE! and its cheaper than singapore anyway! more shopping at chanel blah blah blah
then it was back to the hotel and our cheena conversation in the cab!
rush to the airport and running like mad cows to the plane and then
HOME SWEET HOME!
i miss my bed so fucking much la!

ok!
thats it !
too long an entry will kill all your eyes!

alvina
ah ma, i love you.
everything will be fine.

jess jane. i fucking hate you.
please do not comment shit
cause nobody needs it.

leon.
you and i are just so wrong.
haahahaha
but nevertheless.
experience is experience!

and to you.
my mind always comes to a blank when i want to write bout you and and i dont know why.
you are still always will be my sugar rush,
the only one that makes me tingle the way i do.
i was never good at penning down my real emotions bout you.
but
you are the bitter tear that slides into my mouth
when i think bout us.
love us again will you,
its how,
you remember all my words.
"love isnt love,
when it hurts this much."
but,
"when is it ever enough?
never."
kill me, put a final bullet to our love
and no matter,
id find my way back to you.
you are truly my destiny if you remember paulo.

kiss wife! thank you for the trip!

UPDATES!

i had a job.
i went to work.
for like 2 and a half days and quit!
wahahaha.

then on the same day, i went for a short interview
and got another job!
luck of my wifeeee!

she got slacked by the way.
lol.
but i still love her!!

wed was clubbing night!
hell yeah!
music was not bad. love!

boy s still in the army. ):

thursday was gay night!
i like!
darrannnnnnnnnn i can go gaga just looking at you!
and your songs are nice!
bim-partner! (:

friday is work day. -.-

oooooh!
SATURDAY IS GOING TO BANGKOK DAYYYYYY!!!!
omg.
i cant wait!
i really cant!

for those who are kind enough to send me off
id be checking in at erm 4?
ha! seee you there all!

alvina
i dont understand you anymore.
but nevertheless,
my heart still goes zooming fast
when your face walks into my mind.
but the difference is,
i can push you out as and when i want now.
i am no longer powerless
you dont have that hold anymore.

SATURDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDINE!!

had her 20th birthday celebration last night! omg. what a night !
caught secret with yuyuan in the afternoon! thanks for coming to fetch me and all!
it was a good show !
anybody wanna watch it with me? i dont mind watching it again!
plus there s this show,
the piano tuner of earthquakes!
i want! oh well. we d see.

PHOTOS!

guess who i saw! cordelia! damn it. she got to go in free, watch dmc and still paid!

claudine s cake!

i like this! AHAH!

i love them loads!

kisser kiss! been on for 2 yeas and still going!
i love you kiss! (:

birthday girl ! wasnt drunk!

oooh lala. boy you know . (:

blow it kiss!

happy birthday claudine!

all my girls! i love you! and of course claudine!

i think she was looking at something i was suggesting!

HA! smash that !

SHOTS!


lucky lucky day with my wife!

damn plant

stupid von with her stupid game.

KISS YOU ONLY LAAA!

MODELS.


ok. explanation time!

after the movie was slacking with jane. (yes that jane) joe came later and met us! had lunch! then it was slacking at gay haven, then went over to nydc to chill. amy and siqi came later! shiok!
i miss my kiss! even though i see her everyday im still missing her damn a lot la! fuck.
jolene came after.
followed by claudine! the biggest and yet the latest! whahaha!

had our food. and the cake. which had a little screw up. but still nicely finished!
thanks jane for that dedication and that hey there song! whahaha.
leon was being an asshole at that point of time. wink. HA.

headed down to zouk. jo and qi didnt join us. ): my blonde partner! ):
oh well.

someone wanted to come. and after the end of it all. its a thank god you didnt come thing! ahaha.

zouk was damn happening and phuture was just boring. gave up our table there! but claudine didnt get drunk. ): due to some unforseen circumstances! but it was fine! one shot and some slips!
watched the dmc compeition. omg im in love with the winner! dj inqisitive ! his mix is on my list! go listen. its damn good! and his name is LEON. hahahaha.
looked at the car go out at zouk which was really a waste of time! then it was dancin time! yayy! but halfway thru, when the music was getting hotter, the dj suddenly left jazzy and started to mix jazz and r n b ! was nice la. but stupid. so after sweatng like fuck and watchin the orgies going on, it was time!
r n b mixes starrted! YAYY! fun only! saw valerie there too! omg. that girl can dance! damn shiok!
oh huiling joined us later! shiok only! yayyy love love love!

melvin was being an idiot on the dance floor! hahaha.
and leon is our bouncer cum body guard.
but that guy sure knows how to dance. hot!

left bout 330 and headed to spice. or something.
was damn tired already la.
marsen an idiot.
i asked him why he dont want to sit with me.
he said its for leon what. fucker sia!

headed to kiss house and it was KO time! damn shagged sia.

today- sunday.
came home bout 3? and rushed to meet leon to collect some stuff.
sat and spoke.
omg.
i found him!
hahahahaha. if you know what i mean.
oh well. (:
he "sent" me home and asked,
"where my goodbye kiss"
leave you guys to go think bout it la!

just finished the conversation with him.
eeeyer. i have to wait one week to see him.
then maybe, i wouldnt have the chance to. shit.

alvina
things always happen for a reason.
and leon,
im glad we happened (:

kiss.
i love you

joe
i love you.

you all will always be my favorite girls. (:

i wonder.

when will the slamming on each other STOP!
aiyo.
on well.

i just finished perfume.
and i have a few sentences for you!
but i can remember only one.
that i created from the words itself.

i want to be,
emboss with the word,
luc,
for life.
to be branded yours.

alvina

4 people,

4 packs of different cigs.

2 lighters ONLY.

on another random night,

all four of us,

had the some cigs.

hahahaha. girls forever worrxxxx. LOL.

alright!

joe and kiss been complaining that my blog s been fucking emo.

so change change!

updates!

er.

omg.

too many days already.

lets see. monday was TP cart day!

fun only la! id upload the photos when i have the time! hee too lazy to go copy and paste!

we made a video!

maybe id realise the link the next time!

tuesday was er,

i think RP day. went there to find the keys of the cart ! i hd to pay like 315 for the lost of the keys la! FUCK! so nice joe accompanied me there ! and TADA! i found it at the bookshop! omg! thank god!!!!!!!! (:

joe you are definitely my lucky star!

wed was TP cart day.

eeeyer. sales was bad, there were monsters in the cart. and yvonne was sick to the bone with the "lets try to make alvina horny" game! hahaha

but thanks connie and rachieeee! (:

and of course my laoporrrrrrrr .

thu was slacking in town day.

PLEASE DO NOT WASTE YOUR MONEY ON SKINWALKERS LA.

blooody lame show!

but damn funny.

the movie kiss was like please la please. cut the crap! whahahahah!

then it was frog porridge, ahhhh i miss the raw fish damn much la!

kiss, joe can we go eat one day? ourselves?!

and friday,

is lonely day.

joe is sleeping,

so is kiss.

i shall go sleep soon tooo!

cant wait for tonight!

i hope he can get a car then we can go out play! (:

alvina.

i cant imagine myself dating a guy. HA.

forget yesterday,

for i can look you in the eye now

and tell you,

i dont love you,

i dont need you back.

you mean nothing to me but a friend.

whom has a lot of my stuff.

LOL.

its all bout.

im too sick
bout telling you
my ideas,
my excitement,
and recieve nothing
but fuck
response in return.

i love you,
but i loathe you equally.

alvina

perfume.

to pick up emotion like a scent,
was something i was never good at.
Jealousy was something, i could smell really well.
"she never did what she did for me,
like what she s doing for the girl."
especially,
when it came
right in the face.
You smelled nice and light today,
with a hint of chloride mixed with your perfume.
I'd remember this day,
for you produced my favorite smell.
It stayed with you throughout the entire day,
even with the sweat plastered on your skin,
with warm winds, hot storms,
it stayed.
every pore in my body,
every inch of skin
was covered by your touch your scent.
it swept me away, as if i was in my own secret world,
dancing with your scent,
how afraid i was it would suddenly leave.
even when i was sleeping
i was thinking of your scent,
chasing it to the streets of paris.
but
then,
something clicked,
and suddenly,
your scent was lost.
i couldnt taste it,
i couldnt find back the familiarity of your scent,
i couldnt grasp it as it slipped from my fingertips
it was then i realised,
this was not you.
not the one i love,
not the one whom loved me.
"it was only for the
unknown reasons."
farewell mate,
we could have had it all,
but due to the factors,
bad timings,
karma,
it was all down to zero.
a negative value for our love.
i love you,
like how mother nature will always embrace its oceans,
thats how i wish to embrace you in my arms.
the lushness of the forest,
would be how "green" i want to fill you up with my kisses.
the depth of the island,
is how much our dreams are now.
if only,
everything was like yesterday,
like how it was.
like how i didnt do what i do,
and you
didnt do what you do.
probably,
we would have gotten thru all odds.
probably our future would have became forever.

but.
it sucks.
you re gone.
and so am i.

"when is it ever enough?
never."

i ve got an answer for you now.
tonight is enough.
for the facade you put me thru,
just broke into a thousand and one pieces,
leaving my heart,
shattered onto our island of dreams.

i dont know whether to post this,
for fear she might think im out to hurt her again.
but i want to let her know,
you are hurting me a lot too.
you taught me the term
sadistic love,
and guess what.
its the only love im cravin for now.
and guess what again,
you provide me with that love,
endlessly.
i love you luc,
you take care now.

as the sun sets
in its forbidden skies,
i leave you,
with a kiss
and a mental note,
when will i ever see you again.

UPDATES!
looking where?
joeannne!
drop it like its hot.
oooh lala
toned-down me!

my picture! my shots(:
KISSSSERS!
kisser 2
leonnnnnnn!
cheryl pretty



ok. i ve been damn busy.
parents were out of town for like 4 days?
first night joeanne and amy came over to my hse to put down their bags down! then we went down to zouk. omg the queue was so long! but luckily got connections! so we got in without half and hour! HELL YEAH! joeanne opened a bottle of vodka! so we were drinking! and then joeanne got us SHOTS! yayyy! love love! and then alvina was HIGH. ahahaha. thanks kiss kiss who took care of me for like 10 mins. hee! zouk was totally sucky. thank god for the table at phuture! dance from like 11pm-4am. went to eat after that. then it was knock out till the next day with them both in my hse! YAYY!
thursday was slacky day. sleep wake up sleep wake up! then amy and joeanne went home to change take stuff then kiss accompany for dinner and we were back home slacking ! joeanne came after! yayy! so they were friendsterring and i was on the phone. -.-
and then, there was a huge SHOCK! and we couldnt STOP laughing!!!!!!!! WHAHAHAHAHAH!
kiss, joeanne - you know i know! hahahaha.

friday was CHIONG project day! omg. i have never in my life seen kiss so serious! but we made it on time and now SIP is offically over! and holidays are here!!!!!

(:
bangkok bangkok i cant wait! in 13 days!

friday night,
it came and went,
maybe it just shouldnt have happened.
it just made things worse.
thats all.

SATURDAY!
massive pack up! and i sprayed the whole can of air thingy. damn.
went up with ker, amy and joeanne! slacked around. claudine joined us! then sok hui came! joeanne s cousin too!
and we headed down to ZOUK!
table at phuture again. had 2 shots! and vokda again! was a little high! but the music sucks! dont know why but i feel like dancing is too overrated!
joeanne made my day by telling me what others said bout me! YAYYY! happy happy!
had to send leon back and was home bout 4am. too shacked already.
slept for like 10 hours straight!

alright.
i think thats all. hee.

alvina
cant wait,
for what the future holds.
cause
suddenly,
everything with you
seems damn overrated.

uncanny feeling in disturbia.

disturbia is a very disturbing show for the really disturbed people!
whahaha.
watched it with sabby, sam and grace.
somehow it was funny instead of scary!
and (:

i dont need someone who spins words of love (which are fake)
i dont need someone to send me home everyday (when nothing's the truth)
i dont need someone to bring me to have good food
i dont need someone to be that good looking
i dont need someone who haves crazy sex with me

cause all in all,
i have
(:

alvina
get out of my life.
i had enough of your shit.
i cant see how to get over you.
but i know in the long run,
i will.
so for the last,
i love you luc.

Dance Floor

She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for

Now he doesn’t want her out there and alone
Now he knows she’s moving it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s loosing it
She don’t care

He was always giving her attention
Working hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most sucka’s hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him

Now she’s trying to forget her
That's how she got with her
When she first met her
When they first got together

and this again, are what friends are for. (:
thanks girl for all the hugs and all the logic you are tryin to knock in!
amy says:
i love you =)

ok.
im really tired.
soooooooooo,

swim,
tan,
smoke,
sleep,
makeup,
BAYBEATS,
AVA.
lastly,
SABBYYYYY!
thank you for the care and concern. (:

and of all the blonde moments jo!
whahahahahah!

alvina
bizzare love triangle,
i wonder if you are feeling what im feeling,
cause you d never know,
how hard it is
to get thru this.

and this is for you.

Everytime I think of you,
I feel shocked right through with the both of you,
It's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find,
Living a life that I can't leave behind.
There's no sense in telling me.
The wisdom of the fool won't set you free,
But that's the way that it goes and it's what nobody knows,
Well everyday my confusion grows.

Everytime I see you falling,
I get down on my knees and pray,
I'm waiting for that final moment,
You say the words that I can't say.
I feel fine and I feel good,
I feel like I never should,
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say,
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday.
I'm not sure what this could mean,
I don't think sure what you see,
I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else,
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be.

alvina
reports,
projects,
you.

tell me. after seeing this who wouldnt feel HIGH! lol.

meeting kissey kiss and secret person later.

eating korean! hell yeah!

cant wait. (:

alvina

petals.

petals from yesterday s flowers.
pulls hard.
she loves me,
she loves me not,
she loves me,
she loves me not,
she loves me,
she loves me not!

no matter how hard one tries to get attention, it back fires the wrong way and in the end, screw everythin up for good.
no matter what she s never wanting me again.

its not like she s ever seeing me again.
cause last night whatever she said at that spot and whatever happened lately, did not telly at all. so i figured she s only weakest when im close to her.
soon she d forget bout the wonderful, charming stuff.
then probably, both of our lifes would be normal again.
NOTE, both.

alvina
i didnt know an act could affect a person that much.
im sorry for the stuff i said earlier.
back to sleepless nights,
back to tear stained faces
ahhhh

thats what friends are for




met nunu just now. and she gave me those flowers. -.-
her bf was like. going to clean grave only!
hahahah
but her bf is nice la! so nunu hang on to him please!

i like the bf's camera! damn cool! i have never seen a camera with a remote control la! damn cool.$760.
money does make the world go round round wheeee!

anyway. nunu bf is a taurus.
so this was what happened!

me: nunu! dont read too much into a taurus words la! she said she fucked me with her left hand cause im special or whatsoever which is not true!
me: nunu better watch your back!

nunu: making a stupid face.

nunu's bf : huh but i dont fuck with fingers!
WHAHHAHAHA.
damn funny
cant stop laughing after he said it.

im disappointed with the inflexibilty of my future job. sigh.

alvina
mr teo,
i hope sparks fly after we meet.
heart sinks, jumps, goes wheee!

Once bitten twice shy

But mama commented that, for your case, its twice bitten and god knows when shy!
See every time a relationship ends, its time for quality family time and that’s when I know my mama cares!

Its been an emotional roller caster for these 2 days. Even mama’s prawn mee couldn’t save me from the shit hole I’ve been in. When im supposed to cry, I stay silent. When I least expect the tears, they come. Even mama telling me bout how she met my daddy (haha!) I cried. OH GOD. What have I turned myself into!?

Met up with von, Rachel and aud yesterday. Thank you! All of you for cheering me up. And yup. Von taught me a valuable lesson to learn. Hee-haw. Who could think she could teach!

Lessons learnt.
1) Never date a Taurus.
2) Pride doesn’t cause a single cent – unless its to a Taurus.
3) Dont trust people that easily.
4) Turn straight, cause apparently to mama, all lesbians die young. whahahaha!
5) Last but not least, dont believe a Taurus's words in a relationship. Mostly its all bull.

i dont know how many people i am meeting today!
Kiss - cause i havent seen her in a few days! ):
nurul is being nice, she wants to come to sengkang and cheer me up!
sihui whom i want to update and gossip with.
i should try to push some to tmr. then i wouldnt be free at all ! hee!

alvina
looking thru all our conver,
its a miracle we could last that long.
now when i sleep at night,
i wonder why the tears are coming.
maybe cause i feel sad for deciving myself for so long that i could love you.
or maybe cause i feel sad for you too.
leading that once plastic life of yours.
oh well.
its over!
three cheers to sweet revenge and karma!