and this song,
is for you.

Shotgun Serenade - Juliana Theory

I know you're dying to tell me everything that you want to say, but I'm not listening.
Try to tell me everything that you want to say.
I know you're trying to force me.
Feed me lies but I'm on my way.
Can you taste it now?
I'm dying to watch your face when I walk away.

Here's the final bullet to put our love to death.
Our days are never coming back.
I know it's you. I can forget.
Bang, bang. Shoot, shoot.
There's a freight train coming to force your head in check.
Our love is never coming back.
I know it's you. I can forget our love forever ending.

I know you're dying to tell me everything that you want to say, but I'm not listening.
Trying to tell me everything will be okay. Well be okay.
You're trying to warm my heart but you freeze my blood.
There's ice inside my veins.
I'm only dying to watch your face when I turn away, and Ill turn away.

But you cannot separate the two things I would live or die for.
I'd kill to separate your heart from your head. That's to die for.

You're just a waste of a song.
You're a simple regret.
I thought I knew who you were, but watch how fast I forget.
You wore your prettiest dress, but there's a mess in your head.
They say old habits die hard. I say they're better off dead,
cause you were bitter and cold, but still you burned me alive.
You held the match to my skin and poured the fuel on the fire.
You're not my favorite mistake.
You're just a simple regret.
I though I knew who you were, but watch how fast and watch how well I forget.

It's too late to play the good guy.
It's too late to play the good guy now.
It's too late to play the good guy.
Goodbye.

There's a freight train coming to force your head in check. Our love is never coming back.

ooh lala. the song is so bloody nice.
weekend was finee!
had a family chalet with the kids.
got into wild wild wet again.
and oh boy it was fun seeing all the old friends again!
to think they still remember me! muuhahah.
skipped work for like 3 days.
just a simple thing to give up for more time with sweet love.

im badly burnt, with a stupid sports bra mark on the back. which is so blooooody UGLY la. and the peeling on my face has already started. fuck man! LOL.
oh well.

baby was over at the second night of the chalet. and she was by my side (for a while only) watching my mahjong game. she hates it by the way. but nevertheless she still came! won $6 from julia. hahahaha. oh well. cheap thrills do turn me on.
slept with baby and julia. imagine the trauma we put julia thru the night. LOL.

fyi - julia s my cousin.

shrek is out.
baby can we go watch it please!

counting down to payday and
JET!

stuff happened on monday night.
didnt know i would cry that hard for something so regretful.
oh well.
i just somehow wish things didnt turn out the way it did.
just somehow wish that this stupid pain would go away.

thank you baby
for listening to me cry on the phone and
wanting to come down to comfort me further.
i love you baby.

alvina.
this painfulness.
who caused it.
id never forget.