ranting on a particularly lazy dayy..

she poised herself for a pose,
speaking words that spits venom,
with only one motive in mind,
to break her lover's heart.
but the hidden fact was,
her heart died too.

a dramatic pause,
"baby" a voice speaks
and the next thing was,
"just go, dont ever talk to me again"
with the confusions stuck in her head,
she wonders,
is this love for real?

yawns.
emo only.
kiss kiss has her driving thing on!
wish her plenty of luck! (:

have to go to bugis later. ahhh what a drag to collect my shirts then i can start sellng them alreadyyy muhahahaha !

alvina
baby.

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bored !

alvina

-says:
i go cook.
Luc-sel; word vomit from her blood stained lips. says:
go go
Luc-sel; word vomit from her blood stained lips. says:
my chef husband
Luc-sel; word vomit from her blood stained lips. says:
LOL
-says:
=) tmr seein' baby?
Luc-sel; word vomit from her blood stained lips. says:
of course!
Luc-sel; word vomit from her blood stained lips. says:
we d talk bout that later
-says:
i knw i'll be half dead, but i stil wana see baby.

ahh sweetness id never thought i would feel!
love baby a lot a lot a lot !

alvina
this love. (:

photos!

cute right? lol. baby said she looked like me.

ahhh the first nice cousin shot

jet!

this is how sweet my baby can get.

(:

alvina

so the time has come !

its gonna be 1st july soon.
so definitely clubbing on wed must happen!
its the bloody last time we can smoke in the club.
hor kisser? LOL.

been hanging out a lot with kiss kiss and baby
love their company loads!
cant wait for more outings !
if only i was rich!
aiyeeeee!

life s been slow
with the everyday slap in the face
that would make me realise how much i love a certain someone.
been not going to work at starhub and sitel.
i dont know what s the direction in my life anymore.
it just seems so messed up.
but not the part that imma marry you have kids and settle down of course. (:

cant wait for school to begin.
cant wait for intership to end
then i can earn big bucks so that my lil baby doesnt have to suffer along with me .
oh well.

im starting a business.
those who are interested with the little miss collection
please approach me !
i promise to give you all a good discount ! ((:

publicity always wins at the end of the day,
no matter where.

well well well.
son son son
when is she going out of the picture?

all our dreams got flushed down the toilet bowl as word vomit came out furiously from her blood stained mouth.

just a random comment.
she apparently commented that i like stupid stuff. she d probably think that phrase is stupid but i like it ! so hahahaha. wheeee.

luc-sel
its time for a major change.
alvina does not exist in her own world anymore.
all of her belongs to someone else now.
every inch of skin
every ounce of blood
every contour of her body (fats i mean)
is all yours baby boy.

luc-sel.

i got 2 more blogs coming soon.
if everything goes as plan id be rich and free of my debts by the end of this year!

JET was absolutely fanastic to the max! so much better than fall out boy la. the musicians came out holding beer and cigs in their hands. and my fav boy, played the guitar and smoked at the same time! hahahaha. i know its not that amazing but it was wicked man! HEE.

i just wish i was taller and had a beer in my hand too!
thank you baby so so so much for the tickets!

photos photos!
ahhh
i need more than just 24 hours in a day man.
been smoking so fucking much just to keep awake.
now i dont even have time to play my poor ds. sigh i miss you.

and im juggling better 3 jobs.
why dont you all just donate some money to me? ):
but its ok i guess.
since my darling baby is supporting me.
hor baby? KISSES!

baby was damn cute la.
she was like looking in the mirror and eyes all
then she was like "if i see something i like, my pupils will keep dilating. come come. i look at you"
so i moved closer to her and made her stare towards the direction of the window (it was sunny btw) and i saw her pupils dilating! muhahaha. so she was like see "i like you"

and i was like thinking, when your vision change from a dark place to a sunny place, wouldnt it be already dilating? but i kept quiet and recieved my very warm kiss and hug from her!

muhahah baby dont kill me when you see this ok?
love!

alvina
when it comes down to this;
i know how true it gets;
i see it coming from your eyes.

some people are just irksome.

like say. someone called joreen.
there are millions of joreen, if you re close enough,
you d know what i mean.

she doesnt know her fault. but maybe thats because i didnt tell her,
didnt tell her a lot of things in fact,
like how my best friend is disgusted by her actions,
like how we think she uses underhand methods to get what she want.

muhahaha. im letting it all out !

and im heading to JET tonight!
hell yeah!

alvina
i dont know why i keep having dreams of losing you.
hm

rain rain go away.

when it rains, i wonder if i did something wrong again,
if she s bleeding for me again.

i love you baby.

alvina

tempt.

A temptation is an act that looks appealing to an individual. It is usually used to describe acts with negative connotations and as such, tends to lead a person to regret such actions, for various reasons: legal, social, psychological (including feeling guilt), health, economic, etc. Temptation also describes the coaxing or inducing a person into committing such an act, by manipulation or otherwise of curiosity, desire or fear of loss.

there was once a temptation.
in this very life of mine.
but i slayed it nicely with my shinning sword,
the one i wield a long time ago
this task i had to complete.
took me forever to realise,
but i finally did.

am reading another of jodi s book. The Perfect Match. Its nice. Talking bout a mother's love and doing the wrong things but for the right reason.
reading that book just made me realise how much i want to start a family with you.

i cant give you fanciful words,
i cant write you god forsaken literature,
but i am willing to give you all of me.
and that
im really sure of now.

she said,
as i nested into my favorite position when we sleep,
with my back facing her but with her arms around me and
one hand cupped over one breast,
"always sleep like that, so sian"
it crumbled.
just like how hers did a
few days ago.

alvina
this love.

updates galore.

mummy and daddy and brother went over to msia over the weekend till yesterday. i somehow wished they went for a longer time though. its nice having the hse all to myself and my lover. smoking eating sleeping.

damn baby. i cant wait to get our home! i promise to do the dishes and not laze around with the tv and my ds. pout.

im addicted to my ds la! i found my game ! "sprung the dating game" wahahahaha. love love love !

had suki sushi yesterday with baby. and im going to eat yuki yaki with my cousins today! yayy! im such a pig. and after that meal. im going to be dead broke. which leaves me to go beg daddy for some money cause

tmr is butch hunt ! and dah s and i hope baby s going with me! (:
and friday apparently, we are heading to dxo. pout.
crazy week and weekend man.

baby i know you found out some really bad things over the weekend but please forgive me and give me one more chance.
no more lies.
i promise.
cause its only you that matters
sweet darlin.

alvina
sing your sweet words.

she called her a
lucky bitch
cause she met copeland's
lead.

i d be damn if i met up with fall out boy.
i d go crazy if i spent the night with gwen

girl singers
and boy bands
they make me burn.

my window ledge changed from blue to peach white.
can they really paint the memories stained?
these words in my head.
i wish i had a walking type writer.
then it would capture the
initial thoughts,
before they transform, evolve to something different.
something tainted with the profound english hidden.

alvina
in a hidden world,
where pain exist.
but in a different form,
where i can stab a thousand times,
with green blue fluid flooding the wounds.

-says:
got job lobang want anot

this is a final bullet to put our love to death. says:
what ? lol

-says:
its either you'd love it or you'd hate it
-says:
(:

this is a final bullet to put our love to death. says:
what is it?

-says:
hahah i be your employer
-says:
be my full time wife

this is a final bullet to put our love to death. says:
stupid. no money. what s the pay like? lol

-says:
pay's ermm

this is a final bullet to put our love to death. says:
job duties?

-says:
wonderful experiences for keepsake, unlimited amount of thai express depends on monthly income of employer. pleasurable bus rides and ermm a pretty wife.
-says:
hahah job duties, be faithful and not too wild.

this is a final bullet to put our love to death. says:
hahahah benefits?

-says:
a share of burdens and problems and probably a handful of internal conflicts.

whahaha.
a proposal.
(:

alvina.
but i alreadyy have my baby.
how to accept!

and this song,
is for you.

Shotgun Serenade - Juliana Theory

I know you're dying to tell me everything that you want to say, but I'm not listening.
Try to tell me everything that you want to say.
I know you're trying to force me.
Feed me lies but I'm on my way.
Can you taste it now?
I'm dying to watch your face when I walk away.

Here's the final bullet to put our love to death.
Our days are never coming back.
I know it's you. I can forget.
Bang, bang. Shoot, shoot.
There's a freight train coming to force your head in check.
Our love is never coming back.
I know it's you. I can forget our love forever ending.

I know you're dying to tell me everything that you want to say, but I'm not listening.
Trying to tell me everything will be okay. Well be okay.
You're trying to warm my heart but you freeze my blood.
There's ice inside my veins.
I'm only dying to watch your face when I turn away, and Ill turn away.

But you cannot separate the two things I would live or die for.
I'd kill to separate your heart from your head. That's to die for.

You're just a waste of a song.
You're a simple regret.
I thought I knew who you were, but watch how fast I forget.
You wore your prettiest dress, but there's a mess in your head.
They say old habits die hard. I say they're better off dead,
cause you were bitter and cold, but still you burned me alive.
You held the match to my skin and poured the fuel on the fire.
You're not my favorite mistake.
You're just a simple regret.
I though I knew who you were, but watch how fast and watch how well I forget.

It's too late to play the good guy.
It's too late to play the good guy now.
It's too late to play the good guy.
Goodbye.

There's a freight train coming to force your head in check. Our love is never coming back.

ooh lala. the song is so bloody nice.
weekend was finee!
had a family chalet with the kids.
got into wild wild wet again.
and oh boy it was fun seeing all the old friends again!
to think they still remember me! muuhahah.
skipped work for like 3 days.
just a simple thing to give up for more time with sweet love.

im badly burnt, with a stupid sports bra mark on the back. which is so blooooody UGLY la. and the peeling on my face has already started. fuck man! LOL.
oh well.

baby was over at the second night of the chalet. and she was by my side (for a while only) watching my mahjong game. she hates it by the way. but nevertheless she still came! won $6 from julia. hahahaha. oh well. cheap thrills do turn me on.
slept with baby and julia. imagine the trauma we put julia thru the night. LOL.

fyi - julia s my cousin.

shrek is out.
baby can we go watch it please!

counting down to payday and
JET!

stuff happened on monday night.
didnt know i would cry that hard for something so regretful.
oh well.
i just somehow wish things didnt turn out the way it did.
just somehow wish that this stupid pain would go away.

thank you baby
for listening to me cry on the phone and
wanting to come down to comfort me further.
i love you baby.

alvina.
this painfulness.
who caused it.
id never forget.

she said, im a complusive liar.

-says:
FYP is about grades not real friends.

that was a fuckin knock in my head to wake up.

alvina

pictures first.

my uber cute friend! called dawn!


my new obession! my dear nds! woooohooo! its second hand though. but the price was good and so its mine ! all mine!


silly dah playing diner dash! (:



baby thank you for this!
JET SHINE ON TOUR CONCERT TICKETS! BABY GOT IT FOR ME ! WE ARE GOING ! YAYYYY!
no more shorts and slippers man. lol





and this is what we do in the call center when its so bloody borin. lol

met up with amy kisser.
headed to zouk cause someone informed us that it wasnt packed.
upon reaching, we saw people leaving and was wondering why.
so we walked to the entrance
and
OH LORD!
i have never seen zouk that fucking packed before la!
and the best thing is,
the bar ran out of drinks. -.-
some one shld have called a reporter or something. whahahaha
singaporeans are all cheapo fucks and drunkards man.

so baby and i headed to town
while amy kiss went home !
played house of the dead 2!
nothing like old school!
then caught pirates!
woooohooo
the show was fantastic! fuckin 10/10!!!!!
my jack.
dear jackk.
(:

sleepyhead fell asleep.


was over at baby s.
got up cause of a black out.
she cooked for me, i worked for her. -.-

headed to ikea to eat.
then i had to go to stupid work.
i wanted her to get angels and demons for me but !
she came down to sitel,
hugged me,
and out of nowhere pulled out jet s tickets!
omg!
i was so freaking happy la!

THANK YOU BABY !
YOU ARE THE BEST !

was supposed to mention something in the bus.
but i cant remember.
hm.
well.

dah s birthday s coming !
the big 20!
muhahaha.
i feel young suddenly.

alvina
i wonder,
what s my past life.