dont kill karma.

what is a home anyway? people always say they re going home, heading home. but what does it mean to most youngster nowadays? heading home means meeting a curfew that our parents set up. heading home means making our parents happy. is that really a definition of a home?
home is a place where you feel happy going to. somewhere that means you feel wanted cause the people in it loves you for you. somewhere who you wouldnt feel to be forced to go home.

i wouldnt call my home a home. i rather address it as a house. its an empty house. with prison officers (mummy and daddy) wanting me home to have dinner with them so that they can proclaim they love for me while after dinner i have to return to my cell and await a new day of the same teachin (nagging from them) again.

i have a prison as a home! haha. and they still expect me to have love for them. what a joke!

love to me is a forbidden word. i cant really feel love anymore. i see the world as this empty void sucking people's foolish emotions that they cant seem to stop pouring out.
unless its you. (: you make me feel. you make me feel real. that emotions are not just a waste of time. i feel your love for me. i see you in colour. unlike the other people, stuff that are all in black and white. eeeks!

2 more weeks to intership. more colourless people in my life. had nice dim sum at geylang yesterday ! should have taken the photo done to show how much i had actually eaten. oh well. nice.

alvina
fuck s just a word
and its all fucked up.
just know that nothing you do
will bring you closer to me.

dont say you cant want me anymore.