ACTIVATION RATE.

so you get a msg.
"Hey peeps, activation rate going on now. please help out!"
and other one,
"Hey i was just thinking i cleared my loan with you already think you can lend me $3o again blah blah blah"
and other one,
"my skirt is having problems! show you later arghh"

and all you ever wanted was a reply from her.
ah the irony of things.

im reading this book now, Jodi Picoult - My Sister's Keeper.
im sure if you re a book worm, you would have heard of it. it is a bloody nice book. though i think its a little messy for me to take. Im on page 168 and have grown a huge amount of hatred for the charater Sara.
brief introduction for those who doesnt know bout the book,

"Anna is not sick, but she might as well be. By the age of thirteen, she has undergone countless surgeries, transfusions, and injections to help her sister, Kate, fight leukaemia. Anna was born for this purpose, her parents tell her, which is why they love her even more.

But now she cant help but wonder what her life would be like if it werent tied to her sister's... and so she makes a decision that for most, at any age, would be difficult to hear, and sues her parents for the rights to her own body."

There, what do you all think now?
How sick can parents actually get. This reminds of the movie, The island where real people were "grown" so that in the end, when they are needed, be whisked away to the chopping board and parts of them would be cut out and used for a better purposal.But that wasnt real.

This story might not be real but people are doing it now. Having a second or third child to save the first. To create a child not by chance, by mistake but by some genetic machine that can generate the genes of the child to suit just right for the first.
Thank god anna fights back in her own way. Her mom is so totally irrtating! Like, i think she just makes herself love anna and her main purpose is to service her sister. Its terrible to think bout it. and when realizing the situation that we closed our eyes to, it makes our own lifes seem so much better. So much more comfortable than what others have to go through.
It is sick to the bone that this sort of thing is allowed to happen. oh god, bless these children.

Something from the story that struck me.
"I had the heart of the relationship, and no body to grow in it.
what else could happen? it just broke."
There's this other book, called "Taming the beast - emily maguire"
Whether or not you are into S and M, read the book! it is so explicit in its own ways that it turns me on like no other book have done. Like, when you read those books with like erotic text included, you just imagine yourself in the position and just wank off and forget. But this book, makes you want to try things you have never tried with your partner. This book is strong enough to make you want to do things!
I wish i could give you guys an introduction but i dont have the book with me now.
It teaches me bout how sex really is.

In that book, she mentioned bout how she was having sex with other guys just to find back that passion she had with her first. And her having sex, is not by the tens but by the hundreds. Sex is that free to her you may think but she writes it in a way sex is a totally different concept that we see. She changes your mind bout sex. She influences you so much with her words.

That passion i once had with countless people. Is nothing compared to what im going through now. I wonder who i was trying to match up to. Why was i craving more and more. Why did i leave the ones that did love me? And she gave me the answers to all my questions.
I may have met that one i was waiting for now. the one that brings me to my climax time and time agagin. I dont know bout the future but i do know bout now! Things are at the lowest point now and i doubt anything would continue anymore. Sooooo, maybe id be like the lead character in the book, Sarah and have sex with countless people to find the particular passion i have with this person here. If sex was that easy to have, that is.


alvina
you take someone's breath away.
you rob them of the ability to utter a single worf.
you steal a heart.