give it to me baby

I'm the type of girl that'll look you dead in the eye (eye)
I'm real as they come if you don't know why im fly-y-y-y-y
seen ya try to switch it up but girl you ain't got to
I'm the wonderwoman let me go get my ropes
I'm a supermodel and mummy, si mummy
amnesty international got bankrupt (im on top, on lock)
you love my ass and my abs and the video called promiscuous
my style is miticulous-s-s-s-s

if you see us in the club we'll be acting real nice
if you see us on the floor you'll be watchin all night
we ain't here to hurt nobody
so give it to me give it to me give it to me
wanna see you work your body
so give it to me give it to me give it to me

Could you speak up and stop the mumbling
I don't think you're getting clear.
Sitting on the top it's hard to hear you from way up here.
I saw you tryin to act cute on tv just let me clear the air.
We missed you on the charts last week
Damn that's right, you wasn't there.
If sexy never left, then why's everybody on my shi it it?
Don't hate on me just because you didn't come up with it.
So if you see us in the club go on and walk the other way
Cuz our run will never be over; not at least until we say

this song is bloody hot please! im in love with it. and the words too!
words are that meaningful.
i am sick! ):
with my stupid tonsils problem again. and on and off fever. ):
and i had 6 events to go to on thursday la! and just because of my sickness baby wanted to see me home. o well! AH!

i have a very bad craving for steak! beef steak! man i wannna go eat! but i got no time to. ah ):

bad tonsils still have to go work. this is by far the week i get the most dates but end up not going for anything because of stupid sickness.

alvina
baby
im not leaving
if you re staying.

im done.

with 20 laps in the pool!
hell yeah!
at kisser amy s hse now.
swimming is damn hot la. the sun was on and off but still good enough for me to turn a tat darker. hee. alvina is a very happy girl now.

how can i possibly quit smoking!
mummy and daddy are warning me to kill. but fuck it la. smoking is such a joy. but i doubt id be typing this in a few months time! we d see how it goes.

alvina.
who would it be?
you or me?

dear daddy and mummy
why cant you just accept me for who i am.
why cant you just let me run wild and free?
why must you try so hard to tie me up when you know i will rebel?
why must you make me come home for dinner every night?
why must you make me stay at home?
why should i satisfy your desires for the sake of my own?
why the fuck?!

ahh just had a quarrel with daddy. and i guess whatever he said is true. tonight is actually a night that im home so early la. but so what?! i wanna go out and smoke drink play dance.got wrong meh!? HAHAHAH. so ah lian oh well whatever. im living the life i want to lead whether you all like it or not. so just fuck off withh you?
thanks.

was at bugis just now. got 3 more new shirts ! yayy! thank you baby. but i didnt get to see my pretty girl! alas i know her name. serena! woooo!
but never mind. i saw evan pretty! she makes me smile and its a little painful that she has problems that i cant help with. oh well.
met tejay jane and friend. fuck bodoh! he s still damn emo and rocker style now la. oh well. funny him la!

was supposed to slack at his house but fucker dad wanted me home and i decided to come home to please him. oh sick can that be. yucks.
baby i did not dedicate any song to you. i so swear. omg damn freaky. but yeah.

class gatherin is cancelled. ): oh well i hope nurul still wants to meet me la. pout. then we can go chill out eat and have fun! yayy!
alvina is all bout laughing drinking smokin and having fun.
dont want any dull days and trouble to come! yaooowheee!

supp papers are over. i can only hope for the best.
intership is comin up in 2 weeks. i will be chained to my computer at starhub. all alone. damn im scared but i hope all well ends well.

alvina
baby im sorry
i cant express how i really feel for you.
i love you
i really do.
love the way you look into my eyes and just sing to me.
love the way you tickle me.
love the way you just grab my hands sometimes.and i definitely love the way you hold onto me in bed. (:

PDA. we just dont care.
sihui this is for you!

ah life s been ok. not too busy but yet enough to fill me up.
had a crazy last week! monday was quite free. then tuesday was crazy! working like from 2-12. and then her house! oooh was trying to watch cry wolf but it was a failed attempt! LOL. to dean s birthday on wed! oooh la la. i miss eating steamboat man! nice nice but my results were out so was emo la. as expected!
alvina failed OB AND POM. sigh. ohwell.

had cake and logan martini at can cafe. nice place to chill out !
headed to devils after. alvina cannot drink at all. which sucks big time la! was so drunk that night. worse than leng s birthday! was dragged home and was not a plus that i was puking almost everywhere! eeeks! slept till 4 am then felt hungry! thanks for cooking for me ! (:

thurs was equally crazy! had to meet my cousin and i caught stomp the yard! WOOO HOOO! nice. stomping! hahaha. then had delicious korean food after which i went into a sex shop. woots. then to city hall to meet evan my dear pretty! she s HOT. had new york new york!

fri was work.
so was sat.

then sunday! mama and papa left for gentin! so she came over to my place to stay till tuesday which is today! HA.

alvina
im very much in a confused state of mind.

this was supposed to be posted before the quarrel.

We were out,
But at the moment we met,
I felt the burn.
The burning feeling of wanting her hands in my pants
We watched 2 movies,
We smoked,
We walked around,
We ate.
But that burning feeling never did go away.
She never did notice
How my eyes lit up when we were going home
She never did sense it
How badly I wanted our sex.

In my house we went,
In my bed she went,
But her shorts, my shorts, my bra goes
And straight into what we know is to come

The way everything feels so perfect,
Whenever her hands goes,
My skin tingles
Erupting senses, making everything else so sensitive
Se moves slowly,
Like some self-created rhythm
She doesn’t grabs my breasts,
Instead she touches them with such tenderness
It makes you want more.
She knows,
Knows what every movement and moans are yearning for
And she rewards me
With her delicious tongue
No, not in my mouth
In places she knows will bring me higher.

She moves,
Confidently but slowly
To places she loves.
The clit,
She’s happy with the wetness she created
And continues to tease
The already harden clit.
She knows when it’s the exact moment
Her fingers never do seep in by accident

Oh! The depths of pleasures she brings me to
They are wordless.
After she makes me comes,
She knows what is going to come next.
I make her yearn,
I tease her till she blushed
I play till she can no longer stand.

3 times is the new record
3 times in a morning is a lot.
I am tired,
And so is she
But yet our horniness never does go away
We just fall asleep in each others naked arms
With a satisfied smile on both faces

this was what caused the quarrel.

I love martinis.
Any kind of fruity martini I would adore.
The taste although bitter like most alcohol
Still has that sweet lingering moment within my lips.
I like it because it keeps me company no matter how I’m feeling
Gives me pleasure I only receive in bed
The foreplay of alcohol
Touching teasing making loving
Takes away my pain
As it slips down and burns my throat.
Tonight I feel pain
Feel pain whenever she whips out her phone to reply that girl
She’s with me I know she is
But is her heart with me too?
Ahh, as I sip on my martini tonight
As it numbs the pain now
I think of nothing else
Nothing else but her,
Her and her fingers,
Her and her beautiful smile,
Her and the way she grabs me.

and now
i wonder are we still us?
or are we just nothing already?
sigh
oh well only time will tell.

alvina.
pop pills.
pills pop.

A call girl she makes me feel
She doesn’t pay me in the form of cash
Instead lavish me with dinners and gifts.
And in return,
I fulfill her.
Giving her the best experience she had ever have in bed
Asking for nothing more in return

A typical call girl aye,
I go to the person of instead of the highest bid,
To the person who can offer me the best.

360 degrees of change my ex said
Leaving me to wonder
What the hell had I become?

Nevertheless I have always wanted to know what it feel like to be a call girl
So, now that I feel I am
I don’t really care, or do I?

Feeling love for that mere second
Feeling the arms wrapped around you
A price that no one can pay
Unless it is her
Something that I will always crave for more.

We are just loving the illusions we create for one another.
A perception that we portray
That we believe is reality.
That person is actually true real and tender to touch.

alvina.
perception
lies
illusions
deceit
ahh when will it all stop?

this sucks.

i think imma make my blog private or unknown to people. i cant stand it anymore.
i mean come on! its my blog. whatever i type means whatever i feel right? so why get so fed up bout it?
can you imagine?
someone you like reads your blog and gets angry with you for god knows what reason! then after a night of not speaking she finally tells you.
like hello! its MY blog so why cant i write what i want? must i get your approval?
yes that sentence just popped into my head.
it wasnt supposed to mean anythin till you started on her.
so why cant i use it for my entry?

ahhhhh.
typing on the net could bring so much problems and trouble.

i hate me all of a sudden.

alvina.
talking in circles.
i just want to smoke.

XO.
A LITTLE LESS SIXTEEN CANDLES, A LITTLE MORE "TOUCH ME".


check out. i look like a stinking butch. pout. but mostly people say i look better with this hair. HEE. i look so fat.

there you go! a clearer picture of my hair. i wish i had looong hair like amy! sigh.

my very nice frog porridge! yayy! thank you baby for bringing me this new joy. lol. amy was there with us and they serve star fruit juice ! wheee. that makes alvina damn happy!

alvina is a very happy girl these days because she has not been working and playing all day long! plus going to sentosa regularly to tan! and always there is hot hot sun ! no rain rain rain!
ok im sorry for typing like this.
i feel cute all of a sudden. LOL.

some stuff actually did happen over the past few days that frustrates me a lot cause it makes me think.
and i actually dont like to think.
oh well. esp last night threw me into a frenzy. i dont know what i want anymore though it does seem clear now.
there is always a part of me questioning am i making the right choice when she starts speaking of that girl at the rock show.
ah i hate thinking and i shant!
BLOCK BLOCK BLOCK.
call me childish or whatever. i dont care. i just wanna run away to some where peaceful and fun loving with my darling kisser! pout.

some songs i think suit the situation now. lol.

I don't blame you for being you
But you can't blame me for hating it

To the love, I left my conscience pressed
Between the pages of the Bible in the drawer

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking controlJealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me

colourful aye. wish my life was like that. all nice colours. no ugly colours! sigh.
if life could be that perfect.

alvina.
its true.
you get one, you lose one.
love never wanted me anyway.
who knows maybe you would lose me soon.

alvina is feeling so emo tonight.

ah but someone singing songs for me. making me smile time and time.

i feel this is not my blog. its everyone s blog. time and time again i get people telling me to take it off. cause its this its that. its too good its too shameful too open.
oh fuck off you all.
really.

dont come to my blog.
esp you.
stop using my blog to tap into our life or my life now.
please.
dont use it for your pointless quarrels.

ah
this is not helping
so was the hair cut.
have funky hair but no funky attitude tonight.
so = to fucky hair.

thank you for coming to help with a bad hair night situation.
all the way for just 2 hours.
sweet.

alvina is confused.
very confused.
someone please come and enlighten me.
i dont need harsh comments.
i just need someone to really listen
to sieve out the points that i cant seem to pin point.

its 4 in the morning.
to receive a message sent at 230 is very disturbing.
i wonder why im so fucking irritated.
i know what you said before.
and it just feels so fake you know.
you typing that message like that.
im sorry for being so straight forward
but its how i feel.
i hope you understand

alvina.
someone give me a hint a sign
anything
cause i cant stand this anymore
this lie this deceit.

infinity on high


FALL OUT BOY !

baby s fave! he s damn hot ! he threw the guitar away after the second last song! plus he did most of the speakin to the crowd and introduction to songs ! HOT.

FALL OUT BOY!

baby s present to me when i was having cramps! thank you baby. it was sweet. (:

amy and i at devils!

hell yeah! fall out boy was so fucking cool! despite the fact that we queued for so long but because of some fucked up security guard we had to go out to get food only to return to the hall to find out that the queue moved all the way up! damn so we had to like queue all the way again and at the back! fuck man!

but nevertheless! they were hot! had 2 opening bands which kinda sucked. and some stupid group of people pushing back and forth till i have like cuts on my legs! i wore slippers. HEE. now i know. no more slippers for rock concerts! waited close to 2 hours for them man!

but good things are always worth the wait!
they came out and started playing! swear i didnt feel that energized up before! WOOOOOT! was jumpin and screamin and singin to them !
they introduced the song like. say with me god damn! and it was this aint a scene its an arms race. and like who s here to dance! for dance dance!

ahhhhh! they are so so so so so so so fucking hot! thank you baby for sharing that event and moment with me!

dean you owe me one. (:
ooooh. my 1 more pack of cigs and 6 shots! i will never forget! HA.

when to airport and had popeyes later! shiok only.
alvina s cutting hair tmr. a little scared cause i dont know how the hell its gonna turn out . but wish me luck man!

alvina.
i want to repeat fall out boy again.
i want to fall alseep looking at you.
i want to be able to prepare meals for you.
i want to be your wife.

so may i?

the i s and the me s .

my love love love drink!

black angus! (:

pretty baby girl

weird shot of cousins! during the new year

finally nice one!

amy and me! supposed to be studying

ha we were really bored!

i hope i do all well for all my papers but i have a nasty feeling imma fail la! sigh. supposed to head to sentosa on wed but ! the stupid weather was so fucky! eeeks. rainy season please go again! go go go! cause i wanna go suntan! and be brown till holidays are over. pout. i only got like 1 month of holiday. so siann.

but anyway! when down to town to eat my korean food ! alvina was so happy! played pool with yuu and dean. then leng charm jane amy joined us! saw cheryl pei yi jie jie. LOL. when to her son s birthday party with yuu. woot! jack jack is so cute! so is shan shan! i miss you shan! ok you d never see this but i miss those days with you. ): oh well!

oh yes i was saying saw pei yi jie jie with her ex bf drinking at a pub. -.- ha walked down to devils and when drinking! and omg. dance bar was closed and we were only limited to 5 drinks. ): but this very kind person gave us like free coupons so we had like extra 15 coupons? yayy! and the bartender gave us like shots of vodka ! shiok only. danced with amy dean yuu then we all decide to head down to zouk/phuture to even more dancing! woot! but left that place at bout 1 plus 2 cause it was so packed and the music wasnt that nice ! i want devil s dance bar to reopen with free flow again please!
had frog porridge with amy jane and yuu! nice nice nice nice! baby can we head back there to eat again?! (:

i'll miss you guys so much la! and shidah! i wish you went la! we have to meet up and party !!!!!!!!!!!!

alvina.
these memories that we share. id never forget.