kisses which were so wanted.

i just had my heart broken by an unexpected person. how do i even start our already complicated story? it was actually my fault for thinking of this a little too much i guess.

started on an afternoon of browsing Friendster! (DUH!) and then we were on each other msn. cant remember who added who but some where along those lines i guess. but due to the commitments we had, we remained friends. friends that once in a while said hi and asked our how are yous.

commitments asides, we spoke more and decided to meet up. first time we met was the first time we hooked up. god knows it d be the last?

we spoke in the phone and via sms more and more . it was very comforting knowing someone was always there. it was even more comforting knowing it was you. She make a lot of effort trying to fulfil a promose. but , i just didnt treasure the effort and her enought.

Shall not side track here, i decided that she wasnt good enough and lefft all hat what i didnt know is that my words prick her deep in a place well hidden and i guess fresh wounds like that dont heal that easily. other thing gone unrealised was the fact that i needed her too. damn. what timing.

silly stupid foolish me (or whatever you call a person like me) decided to turn back and give it another go. but that person has turned her back against me. se wanted to try to het her initial feelings back but after ONE day, she knew it was one. whatever done has been done. and furthermore there are more important things going on now.

i confessed my feelings to her, but once a fool always will be a fool. made the move a little too late when everything was already decided. she did warn me bout this but as usual, it fell on deaf ears. harsh words were exchanged but damn! why do i still feel so much?!

this is for you :
You moved me deeply by your sweet nothings like you said.
moved some place in my heart which i thought was dead
thank you for the late night phone calls and sweet comforting sms-es
the effort you put into this thing we had.
and of course the very nice afternoon sex. (:
a lot of me doesnt want this to end.
but whatever you said just now.
its just too late isnt it?

alvina.
you are a fantasy,
an almost dream come true.
out hourse, our car, our once almost everything.
ALMOST.
just one wrong move.
now its all gone.
"i think you are the one."