thanks ade for doing that for me! (: i really like it like it love it a lot!

can i have my own angels too?

ah its sat and im at homeee but i have work later! roar! 6-2 am oh man. no queue calls please! and i have i get to sit at the nokia side or something!
daddy s nagging bout my clubbing life. ah i feel like i lead a double life man! roar. how the hell do i explain to them that i HEART clubbing?! and its one part of my life i would never want to leave now! ahhh we d find a way. hee. till then after 6 weeks of clubbing non stop. alvina has decided to STOP! till maybe 2 weeks later or after exams?! hee!

went to momo live on thursday! with ash and ann. those 2 are crazy man! HAHAHA. plus that night ann was high till she danced and danced and danced! whee! plus i made new friends amanda and ameila i think. oh gosh they both are hot. reminds me of jane and me actually. LOL. pure lesbians the word. ash please thank me for bringing you that pretty girl into your life! hee! saw this person day. gosh she blows me away. she has nipple confidence man! i like! went home at 3. reached home at 4. dad was frantic. gosh.

and they are on my heels bout me smoking. oh dear oh dear!
cant smoke for these few days cause of stinking throat. giving me a lot of problems again. oh well. i smoked only 4 sticks yesterday. damn. i shall buy a pack later! whooo. cant take, taking cigs from people!


watched the show on wed with jane leng charm dah and van. oh lord. show was gore. sick! but still id rate it like 4/5. its nice. supposed to go sentosa with van dear but oh damn stupid sun decided to go into hiding again! i need to tan sooon. hate myself being so fair!

mon was at van s place
tuesday was slacking with von dah and van
wed was out with them
thu was van s place and clubbing
fri was sleep and work
sat is work!
sun is rest day!

roar! shall go sleep an hour more then its work! sihui! eat what tonight! haha

ooh and the www people! how can i forget you guys! i miss you all so much la! one day sooon! (:

alvina
oh man van, trust me im slowly falling in love

ahhh!

im so crazy bout this picture! i look so butchy! hee !
oh did i mention i have a secret desire to be a butch! ha id try to update this love of mine every night from now on! i don t want this to become a dead blog!

lets see.
today school was fine! i absolutely hate php! but i have no choice! my intership s gonnna be all bout php or more! ahhh! had to do proj after school which is such a chore but its been like so long since i sat down and did a group discussion!

when to van s hse after and left with several love bites. oh man! like some bad case of rashes man! when bedok to eat! yums! long time since i had water cakes! ha!

oooh i smoked at home. cant believe i did it ! like daddy s mummy s home. so shhh! and here i am proclaiming to the whole world. lord!

went to dte later and got pissed! ahh long day but i like today! wooot! van you should know why! hahahaha oh man im so addicted to XXX. LOL.

sentosa on wed! cant wait! hee! sexy nice tan! wooot

alvina
you take my breath away with that photo.

linger.

im here! here to blog again. i made two new friends. ADE and VAN tada! ok i know lame.
am on the phone now with ade. oh my she s like hyperly stressed over shopping bags! oh lord its 2 am and i was supposed to sleep before 2! ade this is all your fault!
but anyway thank you for all the nice songs you transferred to me on my mp3! and the deal we made ! muhahaha! i wanna eat rose petals please. LOL.

photos above are on clubbing night! last wed at devils / zouk / phuture. CHARM-birthday girl, shidah, leng, jane, leng s bro and friends, liting and friends, sarah and friend! ahhhh! at devils was just the five of us! then the others joined us at zouk. oh lord it was so hot! i was so so so so so sweaty! no more spag tops ah! dancing dancing dancing! music was still the best on the last mambo night of zouk 06!
went home like at 330? was damn shagged already sorry ade! couldnt have supper with you!
yawns! sleep sleep

i met van from fridae.com ! omg the world is so small. who would think fIrSt_tiMe would be her! as in leng and dah s friend! and amy s and like krist - who is my ex fling! OMG. singapore grow bigger! everybody knows everyone else! oh !
she s a nice person to hang out and smoke with ! cause she wouldnt stop you but continue smoking with you! HA.


ok i know i should stop smokin so much! 22 sticks in 2 days. stop alvina stop ! GAHHHHH! ade -see this is your influence , now im talking to myself too!

met up with ash and gang tonight! wooots! i miss them all so much! smoke smoke smoke laugh laugh play play play! wheeee! that shhould be the life man.

oh man i wanna swim swim swim!! anyone bring me please!
sihui is a nice nice partner to have at work! i like a lot! cause she d entertain me like hell! and how we always sneak away just to get apple pies! john dont be so emo. doesnt seem right when you re so emo!

next week s like so packed!
mon - van
tues - home
wed - sentosa!
thurs - work / out
fri - work
sat - work
sun - home

oh man seven days a week is really not enough for me! KISSER im so sorry i cant meet up with you! at least we d be smoking on monday ! cant wait to gossip with you again! ahh! i miss you so much!

ade - you are not making things better at this point.

school s gonna get hectic and hell with cigs. i shall let them overcome me from time to time.
oh man oh lord. how many times have these words appeared on the blog!?

i cant remember what i wanna type already ahh!
oh my brain cells not working already. damn sleepy but i cant sleep! cause im talking to ade on the phone! see im so nice! (:

oh i wanted to add i slept like less than 30 hours this week! cause every day i was sleeping like at 6 am and waking at lkike 7 8 9 or 10?! omg i dont know how the hell i survived this week!

goood night world. i cant take it anymore!
roar!
night ade!

alvina
i like you around me.
so please dont go.

kisses which were so wanted.

i just had my heart broken by an unexpected person. how do i even start our already complicated story? it was actually my fault for thinking of this a little too much i guess.

started on an afternoon of browsing Friendster! (DUH!) and then we were on each other msn. cant remember who added who but some where along those lines i guess. but due to the commitments we had, we remained friends. friends that once in a while said hi and asked our how are yous.

commitments asides, we spoke more and decided to meet up. first time we met was the first time we hooked up. god knows it d be the last?

we spoke in the phone and via sms more and more . it was very comforting knowing someone was always there. it was even more comforting knowing it was you. She make a lot of effort trying to fulfil a promose. but , i just didnt treasure the effort and her enought.

Shall not side track here, i decided that she wasnt good enough and lefft all hat what i didnt know is that my words prick her deep in a place well hidden and i guess fresh wounds like that dont heal that easily. other thing gone unrealised was the fact that i needed her too. damn. what timing.

silly stupid foolish me (or whatever you call a person like me) decided to turn back and give it another go. but that person has turned her back against me. se wanted to try to het her initial feelings back but after ONE day, she knew it was one. whatever done has been done. and furthermore there are more important things going on now.

i confessed my feelings to her, but once a fool always will be a fool. made the move a little too late when everything was already decided. she did warn me bout this but as usual, it fell on deaf ears. harsh words were exchanged but damn! why do i still feel so much?!

this is for you :
You moved me deeply by your sweet nothings like you said.
moved some place in my heart which i thought was dead
thank you for the late night phone calls and sweet comforting sms-es
the effort you put into this thing we had.
and of course the very nice afternoon sex. (:
a lot of me doesnt want this to end.
but whatever you said just now.
its just too late isnt it?

alvina.
you are a fantasy,
an almost dream come true.
out hourse, our car, our once almost everything.
ALMOST.
just one wrong move.
now its all gone.
"i think you are the one."

Messages incoming stop.

ah! i know i promised pictures but im just too lazy to upload! roar! today was a blast! hee i love time spend with the www people. just sit down chill out and smoke and laugh!

sorry sihui for not working with you but really was damn tired last night la! LOL. you know why! so met ash mel and roxanne! at dte and just slacked a while. smoked a red. eee! so HOT! hahaha. they left so ash was with me till bout eight plus where derrick azfaz wadi JUUU!!( i like HER so blooody much! ) came. smoked some more and decide to go rounding at geyland! wooot. azfar s cool. cause he has a car and a license! lol. went there and back to ash s house to smoke some more and then it was home!

MOMO s lesbian night on a thursday night.

crowd wasnt really there but ok la! music was ok! first time hearing house music! wooots! nice but not that nice to be dancing too i think. i met my ex gf BUBU or rei there! omgg. damn like qiao la! ha! drunk and smoke and dance and did that some more! omg . ann please dont stone ok? i hate it when you are stoning!
ash thank you for always being my dancing partner (:
the way we dance makes me feel a different kind of high.
and charmaine from tiger airways i offiically hate you la. ask me go out in the end never come! tsk! irene ang is bloody funny too please! shall bring more friends down next time round. and oh i saw gemma from stc too. the way she moves. woot!
went home bout 4 plus was damn tempted to head to the chalet but no! headed to school the next morning at 9. oh lord. then it was home sweet hoome and then to dte as mentioned above! (:

work is creasing to a stop! ahhhh i want more shifts please !
update soon!

alvina.
like you said, listen to the beats
and move along.
so shall we listen to what our hearts desired
and follow too?

the way we dance
the way we kiss
the way our hands meet
is enough
for me to beg for more.

Press Play.

as requested from sihui im here to blog! i bet she s checking my blog everday for the latest blog! hahaha! oh well here goes!

I GOT MY INTERSHIP AT STARHUB!

im so happy! major dream come true! i forsee 2007 as a very happening year! i d be working under the info communications dept doing web development. though its not something i really want but hell! its starhub! ah! celebration needed!

watched the show spirit of the vitim. with ash ann azfar melvin. hahaha this is how we sat.
azfar ann ash alvina melvin
oh lord! thank god mel and azfar were not sitting together cause id get disturbed by them like hell! and thank god ash was sitting with me cause i had someone s hand to hold! hahaha
it was a stupid show la. i d give it a 3/5. quite confusing! but sound effects freaked me out man! ooooh man!
walked around heeren before got a shirt and then to cini and ate and people watching! wooot! hot babes and jika ba booooom babes too!
headed to kopitiam after and then homeee!

im sorry but i really dont like people who dont fulfil their promises.

work is getting very slacky man! like 4 hours? i only took 15 calls! fuck man! and anyway my work shifts sucks la! like 4 hours only?! oh man. i hope they extend me!

alvina.
i dont know what to say anymore.
except im crazy over you.
CRAZY.
god only knows why
there s this fatal attraction.

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!

SHE BROUGHT SEXY BACK!

omg. the one night thing i had at genting? is BACK!!!! like omg! she viewed my friendster and i just knew it was her! omg! i miss her like so much! esp the accent! HOT la! who cares if she s got a gf?! i just wanna talk to her and just melt! oh my lord! today s a damn happening day! haha.

let s see. went to school to do my otbs thing and oh! i passed! 11/20 but still i passed and im damn happy! then i went to sell my poor v3 away cause i needed the cash! but nvm! went to aljunied to meet amy! today i waited a whole lot for people la! but nvm! there s more! had macs and then back to the mrt station to wait for ash! i waited for her like 50 mins please! oh my lord. but thank god. she was on the phone with me! (:
then we headed to downtowneast to put her stuff all then back to bugis! whee!! shorts! haha. but yeah met her friend kim? or however you spell it! he s damn funny la please! but sometimes he s like james? cause i dont really get what he s trying to say! went over to bugis street and sim lim! (:
stupid ash. i insist she was at fault when i took the cig from her and burnt my hand. but that 2 kisses made up for it! ahahahah.
i like breko cafe or however you spell it. hee! you should know why la!

have fun clubbing!!! supposed to go. but plans got changed so now im here blooggging!

swim swim swim with joanne tmr! cant wait for major gossip session!

nye!
woooooots! went clubbing at cheekys! ok that place was ok compared to like zouk or phuture ! but who cares! the music was so bloooody hot! and plus ash was there. ahahah. so yeah!
i love dancing with you.
went with ash and ann and later xtina joined us. ok i think that s how you spell her name but balls! it was fun! was high at 2 plus . after 2 jars of vodka lime and 1 tequila shot. hee! ash and ann were both like dead really. so we left the club bout 2 30 and guess what time i got home. 6 am! what the fuck ! all the cab company that night must have been like dead or what! but waited damn long for the cab! thanks to shenel and derrick man!

went clubbing again with amy! cheng ying s birthday. this time a short one! met niven there! and nor maine nor s friend and another one of their friend ! cant wait to club with them again! wooot! phuture was packed but the music wasnt that nice! had supper with amy afterwards! pictures on the next blog! ((:

alvina.
that one single kiss got me hooked on to you again.
and plus.
i really love holding your hand!
so please.
no breaks ok?
i just wanna be with you.

A father who claimed the love of a daughter
And whom he loves dearly too.
But what about the love of his wife?
Does he manage to claim that too?

Or would he rather spend less effort
And go court another?
What if the daughter stumbled upon this affair?
Saw daddy getting on with the other.

How would daddy react?
A. stop
B. continue

I choose B.
Daddy would continue
Asking his beloved to scram

But no dotti dear does not.
Does not understand why
Does not understand this betrayal
She thought she had something whole.
Something to show off.

Daddy ignores
And in a sarcastic way
Daddy taunts his beloved
Making you feel so pained.

You see a knife
Something you tried it before
But vowed never to do again
Things are different, you convinced yourself.

Began slashing in front of daddy dear
Watching the blood flow.
Surprising it wasn’t painful
It was a feeling of a different high
A feeling you cant get enough of.

You decided it was enough.
Enough of this show you watched
And returned to darling mummy’s side.
In tears,
You told mummy dearest
What you saw
What you did
Mummy forgave you
But now you wonder.

Did you do the right thing?

inspired by a dream!
nice?

shall update soon bout nye!

alvina
i feel like im walking in circles with you.