so here i am,

alright.
this blog is offically dead though i promised to come and blog more often.
im just too lazy to sit down and think.
its as if my brain died not long ago.

updates!
final presentation is later! which only means graduation is really soon!
i have an interview at a book store later! (:
chinese new year was not too bad! more money than after! I LIKE.
my baby and I are still going strong. 4 months and counting.

haha.
its been 4 months. i cant believe it. oh dear me, im not going into the sappy love crap and all. im just wondering how long more will it be till we break up?

alvina
why bother?
really.

And so, its the new year !

i havent blogged for ages and i really dont see a point anymore
but i just wanted to highlight something that happened today.

i met a girl,
and i swear
she was attracted to me too
but the sad thing was,
she s was just another dick lover like me.

oh well.
same shit,
different day!


Merry christmas and
a happy new year !

alvina
boy,
i still love you.
no worries to what was posted. (:

i dont understand,

why i still want to stick with a liar.


zouk was incredibly boring.

alvina

disgusted isnt the right word,
but its the first word that comes to mind.

what if one day,
you went back to your favorite place in the entire world,
and realise,
its gone ?

can anyone bring me to changi beach club please,
i want to see that carving
on that particular bench,
whether it still exists,
or it only rings in my imagination.

day s been fine,
caught the golden compass with baby, chris and ben.
not bad a show i must say.
i dont understand why i keep falling for the witches.
she s just too hot.

gave up on mcr,
just gonnna queue on that day itself!
omg omg omg
in just what 3 more days?

i hate monday.
tht s like the downfall of the week.
why?
cause its bloody mid sem test week.
damn.

alvina
toaddsey land - is a place
filled with love, jealously, sorrow and pain.
like i said,
some feelings remain because of the pain.
baby,
why cant you ever tell the truth?
why cant it just ever be us?

i fucking give up.
i hate you

ps : this is a love-hate relationship btw.

kiss, i miss you.

words.

Someday, somewhere, i will see this scene, i felt. The opposite of deja vu - not the feeling that i'd already seen what was around me, but the premonition that i would some day. This premonition reached out its long hand and grabbed my mind tight.

its funny how you know of one word, and that word keeps coming out everywhere. in books, in website, everywhere, it just jumps out at you.
like the sentences above, that phrase "the opposite of deja vu".

baby you are my opposite of deja vu.
you d never know what it means but maybe someday when you enter my mind you d understand.

some feelings cause us pain because they remain.

alvina
baby, i love you.
19 more days to pre-honeymoon.

this is how we do it.


this is boredom in lecture. amy s favorite Hobby. tsk. my hand apparently is a drawin board.
she thinks she s gonna be amy newtow one day!
continue dreaming kiss! i help you support your bubble ! whahahaha

and this is beloved xiao zhu.
amy s imaginary friend who actually is real!
she is loved by everyone else except a few.
sometimes i love her. sometimes i dont.
blame it on amy !
ahahahaha


any oh how way,
i was chatting to this guy online and i cant help but agree to his concept of an open relationship

-says:
it's like we can go out and have fun, and come back to settle our emotional part. and make love which is really nice and different from random sex

(:
sweet.
love love. but then again. i dont know. i had this once and i turned into a monster so i dont know if i want it again. but it definitely sounds damn hot.

plans has been confirmed!
im heading to genting with the bf who i dont know will last long a not.
plus its not confirmed but i may be carrying his child.
omtian
why couldnt this happen like 6 years from now ?
pout

nevertheless
sex is fantastic and i never will regret it !

(:
i love you kiss.

alvina
i gave up that afternoon boy,
go source for your pretty girls,
i d go look for my princey boys.

i know,
i know.

im starting to not update again!
and my dear kiss is complaining !
so here goes !
that cute thingy was how we cure boredom when doing out fyp!
whahahahha

and this is my uber cute boyfriend doing a kai kai s pose.
thank god he got to book out on wed if not i truly would have died missing him.

and for those who still do not believe tht i have a bf.
TADA!
our love love photos.
hee hee hee hee.
deej this is for youuuuuu ! hee hee
oh btw, he likes this photo. i think. i dont know why. i look so ugly.

i love you ckrb. (:


i finallly ! met up with jolene ! cant wait for the pictures to be up on her blog ! chilled and laughed a whole lot !
and sexy girl mel with that sexy hair.
HOT.

and of course,
my kisser.
who s always by my side,
day after day.
i love you nong time wor!
my mp3 miss juxebox!

oh and btw,
its like 5.07am.
and ben and kiss are at my hse rushin fyp.
apparently i m blogging,
ben s gossiping,
amy s friendster-ing.
whahahahhaa
productive hor?

oh! i changed my number !
and baby was damn cute when i didnt tell him !
he thought i was
1)raped,
2)robbed
3)lost my phone.

stupid boy. no wonder i love him so much!
i miss you i miss you i miss you !
yes baby,
i love irritating youuuuuu!
and please !
stop calling amy can?

alvina
come home soon.
cartier?

dear kiss,

im sorry for what i did,
like i know its trust and all.
but i really hope you d understand why i did it.

i d make it up to you i promise.
i want this friendship to work.
no matter what.
i d do all i can,
i really will.

alvina
you are the first one.
i d do all this for.

my promise

see i told you d update my blog!
with pictures all too!
hee hee
for those who are curious bout my boyfriend, ta da!
our love love photos !
(:

he got me donuts ! which i was whining for the past weeks!
he was damn tired and all cause he had like 16km walk thingy thing. and he came and meet me today cause yesterday night i emo him. emo-ing is good. gets you donuts! shall do it again sometime when i need donuts ! whahahahah just kiddin
i love you bf !

my number 1 emo boy.

can i have at least 3?

my donuts !

check out the stuff he got for me ! in like 20 mins of arcad-ing. lol



alvina
stay together for the kids
please !
sex is like so hot !
and im like his stupid baby
like whatever!

ok.
seriously i need to get this blog going.

i m gonna type something.
that the bf will kill me for.

after surfing some blogs here and there.
i have only one sentence to add to perfect their influence.

"i miss being a lesbian so much."

oh god.
kill me, just skin me alive from all this lesbian shit. i cant seem to get it out of my system.

i miss holding a girl,
touching a girl,
having a girl to call my own.

oh god.
there !
i said it out.
boyfriend's gonna kill me now when he sees this.

but nevertheless,
he knows i love him,
maybe not that much yet
but he knows love exists.

boyfriend isnt the right word,
but its the first word that comes to mind.
relationship isnt the right word,
but its the first word that comes to mind.
love isnt the right word,
but its the first word that comes to mind.

alvina
i miss;
is that even important?
i need to kick my addiction for that stick in my mouth.